miss ya momma
Verse 1:
Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t cha love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be
Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah
Verse 2:
Holding on tightly
Just cant let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by
Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh
Bridge:
So and it’s just that I can’t see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything
Chorus:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Outro:
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy
I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
“You’ll never reach it”
Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on
‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!
There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody’s gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It’s all about, it’s all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
i was once a little girl with a dream so big that i couldn’t even remember telling anyone about it because it was so big, it seemed too foolish. but my mom told me i could reach it, and then… i lost sight of everything she ever told me. see, me and my mom were really close. and when she got diagnosed with Breast Cancer, i lost all my faith possible. I had people there for me, yes. But all i needed was her. She taught me how to sing, how to dance & how to live a happy life. No matter how horrible her day was, she always had a smile on her face. Everyone tells me i am extremly like her , in ever way. Her smile, her charisma & her way of just knowing how to be strong and talk to people even when her world was the shittiest ever! she could always make someone laugh in 2 seconds, and it wouldn’t change anything. Everyone loved her. but…. there was one little girl, who was just about turn 14 that next summer who loved her more than words. See, i was more like her than any of my sisters, and when i was sad, i would go to her… and she would tell me ” everything will be alright…. you’ll climb that mountain and see the great view, and realize all those bad things that happened, made you who you are and made the climb worth it.” She was amazing, and when she past away i was devastated. i was only 14, and didn’t realize or know the impact she had on me until 4 years, and a few bad mistakes…. later. She has affected me more now, since i’m 18, then ever. My move to new york has always been my dream. I’ve always wanted to live in New York City & seek out my dream of being a professional dancer & singer. I love to dance and sing… it’s my passion & my life. I’d be no where without my mom, dancing & singing. When i got on that plane, i didn’t know who i had become…. I had let the small things get to me, and let the little girl who had always dreamt of living in new york……. fade away to thin dust….. After a day in Nashville [ cause that’s where i’ve lived for the last year] , I’ve come to a realiziation, i know who i am. I’m the little girl who sang infront of her hometown at every “event or community event” there was. I danced in every performance my little dance ” place ” had…. I’m a former champion in Ballet Dancing & A Rock star in Hip Hop & Break Dancing championships. I was on my dance team at my high school for all the years i attended that high school. I graduated as a valedictorian & a few awards for being an all star athlete. My mom would be so proud of me, or at least that’s what everyones tell me. I miss you momma. ❤ let’s start the move to new york like we had planned when i was 5. i love you, and i will see you soon!
🙂
Jersey shore :)
On our way to jersey shore…….. Were staying here till tomorrow afternoon. Then back to NYC. Last night was pretty epic. When I get back to NYC I’ll post a blog about it…..
We just got done eating sonic :)! Now I’m going to take a nap because I only got thirty minutes of sleeeeeeppp last night and then An hou the night before. Ughhh!!!
Talk to ya lAter 🙂
New york & 2010
The ball dropping made my year…… Meeting the jersey shore cast made it even specialer 🙂
After everything were going to the club….
Massage at eight. I won’t sleep At alllllll!!!!! Thank the Lord there’s a starbucks five minutes from my apartment and they open at five! Four more hours :)!
Be safe, be happy.
Happy 2010!:)
New york city
From this moment in…….
I promise I will write on this more and fill you all in on my new wacky adventures…..
Talk to you tomorrow :)!
Get ready for some crazy adventures!!!
ELP<3
baby girl, it seems like yesterday you were in my room with me up here in martin for Christmas telling me that everything i got for Christmas was a joke. How i miss you! Things get harder without you every day. Especially Christmas. Your mom is keeping strong. I don’t know how she does it. I let Hayden put flowers on your grave before i left this morning. I cried all the way to Martin. Without you here, life isn’t fair. Without Tyler and you, i’m not whole.
Come home soon. I’m sure it’s a big party up there tonight. Jesus is born!! Don’t have too much fun without me! 🙂 Let’s hope i can make it through tonight and then we’ll see what Santa brought me. I’m sure Santa brought you tons of goodies! hehe. I love you, and your goofy self! Keep shinin’ down on Hayden. He misses you. Even though he doesn’t know you. We told him about you…….. and to come to think of it, he’s JUST LIKE You. Same laugh, Same smile. Are you sure that isn’t your child? hahaha! But i’ll see you soon. Don’t worry. I’m fine as it comes. I love you best friend!!!
Merry Christmas!
every part of me….
-i was born on june 26th.
-my parents gave me up for adoption just like all my other siblings , i was 3.
– i have two older brothers, justin & tyler.
– i have an older sister, Lauren. She’s my bestfriend i never had.
– I have a younger sister, Leah. She’s absolutely Ahhamzzzing!
– Hannah Elizabeth Shelton will forever be my number one best friend. I miss her, and all the fun times we had! 🙂
– i’m a sports fanatic…. you know that girl off of remember the titans? the little girl, people say i’m her =).
– i love having fun. no matter what.
– i get caught up in the small things.
– recently, i’ve changed.
– i love God, no matter how hard it may seem to follow in His Glory.
– Tyler Shelton, is my love. i miss you baby boy.
– Jake Shelton is the only guy that has been with me through thick and thin.
– I have baby boy. He’s the best. Hayden Cory Wilson.
– Yes, i did give him up for adoption. But i see him everyday 🙂
– yes, i do regret whom i did it with… but not Hayden.
– Elizabeth Lauren Patton is the godmother. She’s the best, i miss her everyday. Especially Leif… They were the bomb.
i’ll do more later.
❤
letters to heaven.
HES- how am i living without you? you were always there for me. right by my side through it all. i need you here with me every day and not a moment goes by i don’t think of you. i pray to you everyday, every second for strength because i lose some every day because you aren’t with me. keep me safe. i hope heaven is as magical as it should be. i’ll see you soon. i love you. you’re my absolute best friend. i’d give anything to go back 4 years and bring you back home. we all miss you. especially little klein. he was only 5 months old, and you were there. i miss you. jake misses you. BRYAN MISSES YOU!!! but not as much as me :-). We continually, still, have fights about who you miss more up there. he. i know it’s me, don’t worry! I’ll let him win , one day. Keep shinin’ down on us. Rest Easy HES.<3 your very best friend who misses you like hell!
Leif- BAAAAAYYY!!! 🙂 How’s heaven? We miss you. There’s a not day i don’t go by the car wash…..and sit there, and cry. You were pretty much the only person who could keep me laughing. I was never mad at you. I need you to come down here and put some sense into Willll! He’s crazy and insane… Not like we didn’t know that :), but he’s more insane…. I love youuuuuu!! I miss you. I need to joke around with you , soon! So come on ‘ home… Misss youu budddy! 🙂 Save me a spot up there next to you and baby ty. Don’t be gettin’ into too much trouble. I know you too!!! 🙂 Loveee youuuu!
ELP- COW! I had this awesomely good story to tell you the other day, so i went to your room, and wrote it on your board… Your mom came in, and started to cry. Then i started to cry. this isn’t fair. I should be up there, not you. At least you’re happy and not in pain. But i’m in pain. Softball isn’t and will never ever be the same without you. Senior year wasn’t the same as we wanted it to be. Mexico, oh my lord! It wasn’t the same. Baby Hayden needs to meet his Godmother……….. Ryan and me finally are okay… Aren’t you proud :-). Night before Christmas is on…. I need you…. You’re an amazing girl. You are tremendouslyyyy missed! Come home, Patton and hit a homerun with me :)! See ya soon!
Big W! :)- It snowed the other day, and i wanted to go snowboarding with you. So please say you snowboarded in Heaven……… Come snowboard with me soon, lover. Say hey to Elp. omg, i miss you saying hey. hahaha. ” He was so retarded he went AYYYYEEEE.” I saw your brother the other day, and now he’s in my room. Say AYYEEE! Missssss youuu lovvvveeeerrr. Seee you way too soon, and way too out. 🙂 Don’t snowboard too much without me :-)!!!!<3 hoe.
Baby Ty- WE’RE SINGING YOUR SONGS, AND DANCINGGG! COME HOME SOON! – Kaitlyn.
okay, so yeah. Replay is on. WE need you to come Replay you’re grooool of a dance you taught us ;]. “Excuse me, but that wasn’t nice. Redo, please?” I spilt my tea on me this morning………. Josh made fun of me like you would. I missed you. Jenn hasn’t came around after i told her off. But hey she is still probably thinkin’ doritos are a vegetable. She might even think hot chocolate is a fruit energy drink. :-). But seriously, if you don’t come home soon, I’m personally coming up there and getting you…. hes…leif…elp and big w… and bringing you all HOME! Christmas is in like 2 weeks…. I still want that,….. so i better see it under my treeee! No one turns the lights on…. I got pisssed. I tried to drive 90 today…. I guess i couldn’t… HA! So you closed my window i’m assuming, cause no one is over there and it just slammed and it scared kaitlyn. So thanks :-). Come home, now! I’m writing you another letter tomorrow, so open ya ears nigggg! :] don’t do anything stupid, don’t do anythin’ reckless. okay got you, ty! love you brrooo and best friennndd… i’m lost without you, i really am. i think about you every day. how am i living? like forrreeeal! see ya soon, superstar. Rest easy!
alot has happened in 2 months.
i’ve moved.
i’ve gained.
i’ve lost.
i’ve cried
i’ve fought.
i’ve learned.
i’ve lived.
and i learned that no matter what happens in life, i got myself… and God! :]
Ihannahallison. 